What I want to do versus what I can do...

     Sunday June 23, 2013 11:02    
            So it's been since May 16th that I have been able to walk on two feet and drive myself around. At first I was in a lot of pain and was extremely careful about how much I did because it's so exhausting walking around with crutches. I really wanted to get out and do stuff because I feel lazy and bored just sitting around the house. I did realize that I needed to rest more than move around because my foot is not exactly healing like it should be and I'm not at the stage I'm supposed to be at. I do however, want to get the hell out of the house all the time, but can't which brings me to my versus monster. What I WANT to do V. what I CAN do, which isn't very much unfortunately.
          When I first went out after my surgery, I had a hard time because I hadn't been on crutches so I had to build up my arm strength and endurance. Now that was hard, but also kind of awesome, my arms and back look pretty good. And it seems I end up going out of the house and staying out of the house for hours, so sometimes we go somewhere where I have to crutch a lot (target) and it really makes you inventory what you need on what side of the store so you don't have to go allll the way back to the other side. Very exhausting.
          So this leads me to my entire dilemma, want to's and can do's. I want to go out hang out with my friends and be outside or wherever and listen to music, or eat drink and be merry. What I can do is sit in the a/c to minimize my swelling with my foot propped up and I can't really drink any alcohol because it increases the swelling plus, crutches and alcohol definitely don't mix. I have tried to go do things outside, but I feel extremely tired once I get back home and it makes me crabby. At first I started trying to go do things thinking it would be ok, because when I get home i'll put my foot up, but in actuality I end up out too long and it is probably detrimental in the end. I should have my walking boot now and should have been walking on my foot for the last week, but I'm still on my crutches and stuck in Kansas. My poor mom has been here since May 8th helping me out and we are driving back to New Mexico where she now lives with my dad at an unknown date because the future of our trip is up in the air and at the mercy of my Nazi surgeon. So this Thursday I have an appointment with Dr. Nazi to see what she has to say and to answer my question, "When can I leave???"