In case you didn't know, my husband is currently deployed. He is not here, meaning he doesn't come home everyday during the week at the time he usually would to say, I'm hooome and hug me and kiss me. I don't get to fix dinner with him after talking for 20 minutes about what we should have for dinner, and we don't get to talk about how his day was over dinner at the table. No, I don't get to sleep next to him at night and I don't get to wake up next to him in the morning. I do however, get to do all those things by myself...not the same though. It really is harder, and not just because I'm missing another person but because my heart is missing it's other half. It is very hard and it doesn't matter if your military spouse is in a dangerous place or not, they are still not there, with you to live life next to you. It is hard to try to relate to other people whose spouses are not in the military because they don't feel the same separation and the same situations as military spouses. I have a few people to relate to, but not really. Every one's relationships love is different so of course it's hard to relate to other people.
I just think everyday that It is another day closer to seeing Josh, but then I think of how far away that day is and it makes me sad. It's like leaving half of your heart somewhere else and you can't have it back yet. It makes you appreciate things more, like life and everything that goes along with life.
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